Days with You

PURE, TO BE REMEMBER

‘Tak terlalu banyak mengetahui, hingga hidup hanya terbatas pada bahagia dan hari-hari yang cerah. Semua masih pada batasnya, hatimu masih seputih salju. Jikamu masih selembut kapas, dan tuturkatamu masih sebening embun. Dirimu masihlah mutiara. Tetaplah kamu mutiara meski ia telah tercampur. Pulanglah, meski takkan lagi sama. ’ (Aku, N.q)

Days With You

Monday, December 24^th 2018

He was waiting me in front of class, we walked together. I didn’t know anything else, that I know was: I loved him.

I was white, I just knew about Devil besides you and Boys Before Flowers’ movies, star and rain was beautiful to be enjoying together with you, always want to meet you when I in the school even just see you or heard someone told about you, and enjoying life without missing, memories, and pain.

And now, you make pain. You leave me and I miss u. Can we meet? Just meet, even don’t talk it can relieve my pain maybe not enough. What is the ending later, I don’t know. I hope it will be happy ending. Aamiin.

There were six classrooms, two were very memorable, or three. When you came late for mathematics additional class, you wear an orange short, friends laugh to you, I laugh also, but in my heart I was very happy because I can see you.

Then, on the other special classroom you said to my friend, when my friend lied to you that I was crying. You look at me and said to her “If she cries, I will cry also”. It makes me blown up.

Then, when we were reunion, we met again. We talked little, you bring cake, you washed dishes, and ignored women. After that time, I know you are a kind man.

And remember about those, make me love you more now.

But, I must run away. I am a dust, and you a moon.

Allah knows. Which the best to us, let it be going, as should as it be.

Cause if HE want, He will make we meet, but He didn’t.

That make strong, for I know that the ending will be an happy surprising, that erasing the pain and drying the tear. Aamiin

DAYS BEFORE IT

DAYS BEFORE IT

Monday, December 24^th 2018

I failed again. My eyes, finger to search, and the time.

I heard, on the morning, a man said ‘Shouting to Rasulullah Saw. can erase the kindness of worship, just speak louder..” Then I thought, ‘how and what is the effect if someone do a sin and Rasulullah Saw. know it? It is like throw a sin to him, the precious person. We will lose bigger think’. Oh Rasulullah Saw, when will I make you smile, and proud of me?..

Now is Banten’s tsunami situation. It is feel very deep. The story of the seventen’s personals band and aa Jimmy who passed away, the victims, and the viewer. One thing that we know is ‘they are the choosen. When we dead because of sink on the water or struck down the debris, we becomes syahid, and I believe it. All of the victim is the best people, who was dead or still alive, because Allah loves them, want them to get the best place in jannah want to erase their sin. Then Allah also gives us the notification, to don’t forget to the death and still strong in Allah’s way. Then also, Allah wants us to help each other by money, pray, or the energy. Then which of the blessings of your Lord will you deny?

Then, there are so many friends already get married, my mother said to me that she wants also. I hope, I pray, Allah knows. I wish it will come soon.

The programs, want to spend time with the useful activities and don’t separate with Allah and Rasulullah. Then also keep five prayers and be kind daughter for my parents, because both are the key for me to reach paradise.

I ate patin, what is it in English? So delicious, I want to know the recipe.